My Dad just came upstairs and threatened to kick me out of the house because my fan is too loud. If I turn it back on he'll kick me out.
Now I'm grounded for /days/ and no one is allowed to come visit me.

I'm on /thin ice/ and apparently I have an attitude when I just said good night.

I'm really stressed out.

I don't need this.

 

 

I keep waiting for something good to come along but all I get are more hours at the job I hate, drama from my friend’s, and more harassment from the father I can’t stand.

I’m going to go to bed before I make any rash decisions.

Kinda bored and lonely sitting up in here in my room :C

One of my best friend's moved to NJ and the other one is busy all the time now. Jess is busy with school and we can't see each other very much. Matt's in town but we never seem to sync up.

If it wasn't for Jenny being home I'd have been alone all week.

I don’t want to call anyone up either because I’m quiet and awkward sometimes so I don’t want to bore anyone  :/

A song came on the radio while I was driving home and I kind of broke down a little bit when I finally got to park.

 

I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Even in the dream I had last night I was lonely/clingy.

I was talking with one of my friend’s and clung/hugged her :C
Maybe I’m depressed and repress it while I’m awake.

 

Maybe I’m just broken.

It’s been a really long while since I last posted on here.

What’s been going on..

Really not a lot. I got a 360 Elite with Left4Dead last week. That’s pretty fun. Still dating Jess. Things have been kind of.. eh lately.

I’m not sure if it’s because we don’t talk that much while I’m at work and she’s at school and working on the weekends.

When I visit her house we don’t do anything. Well that’s a lie. She wants to cuddle the whole time I’m over. I want to go out and do something but she just wants to lie in bed and cuddle or cuddle on the couch.
We don’t do anything anymore. We almost went to Red Robins the other week. It didn’t work out and she got really upset.

She also gets incredibly emotional. I’m not a jerk, I understand emotions and can empathize but it’s ALL the time. I don’t even want to continue about this bit because I feel like I’m coming off as a jerk who doesn’t care if my girlfriend cries.

Being home alone gives you a lot of time to think about things. The future, the past, where things are going, what I need to do to change things.

But of course do I do what I need to do? No. I space out or put it off or something. I hate myself for this.

The feeling of never really accomplishing anything is rather crippling. The future is unclear and I haven’t been able to concentrate on anything, much less reading my tarot cards to get an idea.

 

I’ve been telling people I’m going back to school in the Spring. I really don’t know what I’m doing yet.

 

Should be going to see 9 Friday. I hear it’s excellent.

Colleen has been in contact with me and we’ve been trying to do something. Maybe she and Bridget would like to come also.

On a positive note I have Scribblenauts reserved and will wear my hat a.s.a.p.

 

~

So today I'm doing a major furniture move around in my room. My parents pretty much said that my goal of moving down into the basement for the end of September is unreachable so I guess I'll have to settle for here for now D:

Here's my room set up

__Shelves__________Comp_________TV_____________-----------_________
] ~~~~~~~~               ~~~~~~~~   ~~~        ____                                       |                   |   |
]|~~~~~~~                    ~~~~~~~   ~~~      /_____\                                    |                   |   |    Dresser with aquarium
]|~~~~~                             ~~~~~                                                                  |                   |   |   and Madame (Leopard Gecko)
]|~~~                                      ~~~                                                                  |________|   |
]            ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||                                                                                  |             |   |
]            ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||                                                                                  |             |   |
]            ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||                                                                                  |             |   |    Hope chest with 55 gallon
]|           ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||                                                                                  |             |   |    tank with a bearded dragon at a later date
]|           ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||                                                   ~~~~~~~~~~       |______|  |
]|  ~~~  ~~~~~~|~~~~~~ ~~~                                            ~~~~~~~~~~                          |
]   ~~~  ~~~~~~|~~~~~~ ~~~                                            ~~~~~~~~~~___________|          
                       Bed                                                                        Stairs              ---------

I have a drawing but no scanner <<

And I'm thinking I'll swap the TV and book shelf with the shelves and comp.

http://wii.ign.com/dor/objects/748892/animal-crossing-city-folk/videos/acrossingwiiOS1_071508.html



OMGOMGOMG x33
I'm so excited for this
Depressed cus it's being released in the holiday season ;_______;

It looks so cool, keyboard support, VOICE chat... just omg x33


Sorry for squeeing at you but I'm really excited for Animal Crossings DX

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I just hope back from hanging out with Josh (and his g/f), Matt, and Sam. Was fun :3 I won a buncha shit with egg toss and the spoon/egg game >3
I so fucking rocked it
The only time my egg broke was when Matt threw mine low and to the left. I Matrix/dove down and blocked it instead of catching it. So I got a lil on my hand and the top was broken but thats it.
I won soap >3 which I wanted/needed.

Actually, post chilling... I feel kinda lonely
Might have been that I was hanging out with two couples.
I think this is why I want another pet. To fill some gap in myself.

My parents just tried to make the deal : no more pets for a 30 something inch TV they arent using.
But I dont them to have a method of control over me so..
I'm thinking I'm gonna say no -3-'

Tomorrow I'm going to Friendlies, the bank, and then PetCo to get my check, my money, and then check out their merchandise lizard-wise.

OMG

Me: ROB vs Ice climbers and Bowser

I fought them with my feet D:<
AND OMG I feel like I have foot arthritis xD

Won four nothing (stock five)
Wouldnt have died if it werent for the environment hazards

I got a new webcam and just did a move around of furniture in my room. It looks cool and pretty functional ^^

I applied yesterday and they called back today >3> Meep
I've got an interview Saturday *fear*
I havent had a job in a while Dx ack
But, money'll be nice.
Especially with car insurance, WiiFit, movies, and food Dx
Not to mention school books

And OMG my fingers hurt!
I was making spaghetti in the micro with plastic wrap over the top of it and hot air built up in a bubble and when I opened it it scalded my left pointer and middle finger >3< Ow ow ow ow ow ow!
The skin just hurts to exhist




http://emege.deviantart.com/art/Cooking-Mama-86989633

OMG xDD



"Herro... good to see you" ~Miyamoto xD

This came on the radio and it entertained me xD

Cheap computers I found :D
Laptops to be specific ^^

http://store.shopfujitsu.com/fpc/Ecommerce/productoverview.do?type=NB&pgid=Notebooks

ZOMG SU BORED D:
I'm kinda getting bored with Wii a lil D: I mean, unless I'm playing with friends and stuff
I already won all of the cups in Mario Kart >3>
Crap thing about Mario Kart is that for VS you cant do JUST humans D< its you, your friend(s) and like 12 other CPU's to harass the living shit out of you.
Gah, its less racing and more "throw shit" contest

Cant wait for WiiFit. That'll keep my attention more I think. Hopefully I dont drop it as fast as I dropped Brain Age ^3^'' (I played Brain Age for a bit but got bored with the same shit)


OH DUDE
I got the notice about the Nintendo Channel. Apparently you can download demos to your DS now? :D
I'm super excited to try it, sounds whicked nifty.
I forgot about that promised feature.

How cute is this? xD

Simple I know xD made it though so shush